Sunday, September 21, 2008

Long Time

I know it has been a long time since I have blogged. A week, I think. I had the after retreat crash! I think I fell into bed every night this week. I am finally feeling normal again. At least, normal for me.

We had a great football game yesterday. Drew was awesome. I am so proud of him. I just have to tell you how hard it is to sit on the sidelines and watch Drew play quarterback. I feel so helpless. It makes me a nervous wreck. I am so happy for him when he does well, I hurt when he messes up. It is just a wonderful/miserable experience.

It is like life. God is the quarterback and that is hard for me. I want to be making the plays and not watching from the sidelines. I am so much of a "doer" it is hard to let God do his thing and I just follow His lead. He wants to control this game of life and so often I "bench" Him and come in as my own quarterback. I know better but I do it day in and day out.

One theme God is hammering me with this year, "Let me be your quarterback!" God is continually showing me that I don't have to be the quarterback. He can run my life so much better. My weakness and unablity allows Him to move. It allows Him to score the touchdown for HIs glory. I pray this week I will just lay it down. I will let Him run the plays in my life and bench myself.

Who are you being? Quarterback or God's support player?


Tiffany said...

I love all of your post and how you just make it about God!! As it should be but it's like going and hearing an awesome sermon that combines LIFE and GOD and makes you say "YES LORD, it makes sence!!" Thank you for your wisdom and way of making sence of life!!

Breanne said...

I am so glad Drew is doing so good!!!

I hope I am being exactly what He wants.

Suzanne said...

I definitely want to yield to letting Him be my quarterback, but too often I find myself out on the field throwing a lame duck pass and hoping for a good outcome.

It is so much better to run my course and be in place to receive His pass. As a receiver I still have responsibility to go where He sends me, but when I do, He rewards me with victory over what I am facing.

As you can see, this analogy really hit home with me. Thanks for sharing!

JMBMOMMY said...

I am on the journey to dependence! It is exciting....